leonhart: Heath Ledger, black & white, with the Joker's smile (in memoriam)
I never know what to write about anymore.

Edit: Well, okay. Holidays sucked, social anxiety has increased, and I've gained weight.

I can barely concentrate on anything these days.

I'm pretty much done with fandom on DW forever, because there's too much cliqueish lingo and I can't be bothered learning it all.

I probably sound really grumpy, but I don't feel grumpy. I just feel blank. Guess that means I went too long without meds.

I'm probably going to clean up my subscriptions list because I honestly don't recognize 90% of the people I have friended here.

I start a lot of my sentences with "I." Maybe that says something about me.

Edit redux: Man, I really need to update my icons. Part of me wants a new journal. I can not keep a journal to save my life, sigh.
leonhart: Cloud in the church, FFVII: Advent Children (searching for forgiveness)
I've been playing World of Warcraft for nearly two weeks now, and I am positively enamored. My main is a worgen druid on Moon Guard named Caitríona. I also have a gnome mage on Wyrmrest Accord named Sidona. And for non-RP shenanigans, there's Bullificent the tauren on Ravencrest.
leonhart: black & white image of squall's torso from opening credits (lionhearted)
Since I no longer consider myself trans or pagan, I need to step down as mod and let someone else take over. Here's my post asking for anyone interested.
leonhart: black & white image of squall's torso from opening credits (lionhearted)
Please signal boost, this needs all the attention it can get.



Pe' Sla is an area in the Black Hills of South Dakota (just west of Rapid City) that is considered by the Lakota people to be the Center and heart of everything that is. It is part of our creation story. It is a sacred place. We perform certain ceremonies at Pe' Sla which sustain the Lakota way of life and keep the universe in harmony. This area is currently owned by the Reynolds family. They plan to auction off almost 2,000 acres on August 25, 2012 to the highest bidder. It is likely that the state of South Dakota will put a road directly through Pe' Sla and open up this sacred place for development. The seven bands of the Lakota/Dakota/Nakota Oyate (people) aka Oceti Sakowin (Great Sioux Nation) have a collective effort to buy as much of Pe'Sla as we can at this auction (although we also believe that the land cannot be owned and that our sacred places were illegally taken by the United States). Yet we are trying to work within the current U.S. laws to regain custody of our sacred sites and prevent future road and industrial development. Our sacred ways must be protected and passed on to our future generations so that our children may live. This area of the Paha Sapa (Black Hills) is also home to many plants and animals who should also be protected. In fact, many consider that the area should possibly be a historical site, which would also assist in protecting it from future development as well. As Lakota people, our ancestors prayed here, at Pe' Sla, at certain times of year, when the stars aligned. We cannot go elsewhere to pray. We were meant to pray here. This is what they do not understand. Please help the Lakota people. "Let us put our minds together and see what life we can make for our children." Chief Sitting Bull, 1877 We have a group of young professional Native people that are dedicated to the promotion of education, health, leadership, and sovereignity among our indigenous Nations. Our goal is to assist in any way possible the purchase of Pe' Sla by a collective effort of the seven bands of the Oceti Sakowin (Great Sioux Nation) - the Lakota/Dakota/Nakota people. All proceeds from this campaign will go towards that effort. This area would be open to tribal nations for ceremonial purposes. The plants, animals, water, and air in the area would be respected and honored. Please see http://www.lastrealindians.com/category/chase-i... for more information. We thank you for your hope in the future.

We are hoping to buy as much of the land that is being put up for auction as possible. The total amount of land is 1,942.66 acres which is in 5 tracts (300 - 440 acres each). It is diffcult to say how much this land would be sold for as developers may increase the true western "value".

The Rosebud Sioux Tribe has designated $50,000 for the purpose of purchasing Pe' Sla land. By contributing to the effort of all the Sioux Tribes, we aim to purchase at least some of the tracts, if not all. Many of the Sioux Tribes continue to exist in poverty and do not have a thriving casino-based economy as the media may have portrayed. Yet we continue to fight for what is sacred, because it matters!


Here's the donation site. Any help in bringing attention to this would be appreciated.
leonhart: side-shot of squall from opening fmv (maybe i'm a lion)
Just wanted to let people know that I cleaned out my old journal ([personal profile] larxene) so I could use it for a role-playing account, and that means I deleted the discussion post about the erstwhile add_me fiasco. However, I did save the page as a pdf file, so if anyone wants it just let me know. :)
leonhart: black & white image of squall's gunblade & case from opening credits (revolver)
There's an alternative to mass-deleting a bunch of usernames that you no longer want. Read more here. Thanks [personal profile] stormy for the heads up!
leonhart: Rinoa holding Squall with the text "I will follow you into the dark" (Default)


According to Wikipedia, Pureka identifies as genderqueer.
leonhart: Heath Ledger, black & white, with the Joker's smile (in memoriam)
Yesterday, upon the stair,
I met a man who wasn’t there
He wasn’t there again today
I wish, I wish he’d go away...

When I came home last night at three
The man was waiting there for me
But when I looked around the hall
I couldn’t see him there at all!
Go away, go away, don’t you come back any more!
Go away, go away, and please don’t slam the door... (slam!)

Last night I saw upon the stair
A little man who wasn’t there
He wasn’t there again today
Oh, how I wish he’d go away
leonhart: barret, tifa & cloud standing outside of the shinra building (avalanche)
I haven't updated in over a month because I've been spending most of my time on Plurk. If you have one, feel free to add me! [plurk.com profile] wildarms is my username. :)
leonhart: Cloud in the church, FFVII: Advent Children (searching for forgiveness)
This is one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard in my life.



link
leonhart: Rinoa holding Squall with the text "I will follow you into the dark" (Default)
Under a cut, of course. None of these were made by me, fyi.

SPAMMY GOODNESS )

Aaaand done.
leonhart: Rinoa holding Squall with the text "I will follow you into the dark" (Default)
"The gesture of Aphrodite/Venus lifting of the robe symbolized religious initiation and the ancient Greeks worshiped the woman's "rich" buttocks to obtain great wealth on earth as the two Syracusan sisters who inspired the Kallipygos idea, had accomplished." Wikipedia

Kinda puts the whole "ass worship" kink in a new light, huh?
leonhart: Heath Ledger, black & white, with the Joker's smile (in memoriam)
I start my new job in eight days. I'll be starting off part time, but it could turn into full time next year, so here's hoping.

I was going to write some more about gender issues but I still don't know how to describe what I'm experiencing. It's pretty frustrating.

Religion/spirituality wise, things have been frustrating on that front as well. I don't have enough privacy or personal space to worship like I want, so I keep feeling really dissatisfied with how things are progressing. Hopefully, if my job turns to full time, I'll be able to get my own apartment and then I can honor my gods without having to look over my shoulder.

Sometimes I feel like there's something blocking my emotions. I hate this detached feeling. I think it's my medication, but without it my emotions are impossible to control. It's like I have to choose between feeling dead and feeling...I don't know, too alive. I hate the paranoia and self-loathing, but I hate how stunted I feel right now. I need to find a way to reach middle ground.
leonhart: Heath Ledger, black & white, with the Joker's smile (in memoriam)
Hey, how's everyone doing? I'm surviving, for the most part, but chronic pain and dysphoria are making me want to hide in my room and never come out.

Love this.

Jan. 26th, 2012 12:58 am
leonhart: rinoa from second disc fmv holding on to a cable (freedom fighter)
"Lest we forget at least an over-the-shoulder acknowledgment to the very first radical: from all our legends, mythology, and history (and who is to know where mythology leaves off and history begins or which is which), the first radical known to man who rebelled against the establishment and did it so effectively that he at least won his own kingdom -- Lucifer." -- Saul Alinsky (Rules for Radicals: A Practical Primer for Realistic Radicals)
leonhart: black & white image of squall's gunblade & case from opening credits (revolver)
NOTE: Spoilers in the comments!

So I'm finally playing Vampire: The Masquerade – Bloodlines after hearing good things for years. I'm playing a Tremere and she's been fun.

What I'm wondering is, what mods can I download that will add some queer content? I'm always a bit confused by vampire settings that are heteronormative -- vampires have always been very queer for me, though that could be from reading Lost Souls and The Vampire Chronicles at a young age...

Anyways, yes. I'm open to kinky mods too. Just no rape or rape fantasy mods, please.

(Yes, I pretty much made this post hoping that [personal profile] dingsi will read it.)

:(

Jan. 9th, 2012 08:20 pm
leonhart: Rinoa holding Squall with the text "I will follow you into the dark" (Default)
Tried to start a new game of FFX today but my PS2 died. Ugh. It had a good 10 year run, at least.

I wanted to re-play because I'm applying as Yuna for [community profile] witchesreign and I wanted to get her movements and habits down. Well, I have some cut scenes downloaded to my laptop so I'll use them for reference, I guess.

Anyways, RIP PS2.

!!!!!

Jan. 9th, 2012 12:45 am
leonhart: Cloud in the church, FFVII: Advent Children (searching for forgiveness)
I might have a job!!!

It's a temporary job, but it'll give me enough money to take the GRE!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

So excited omg. :3 I need to start studying!
leonhart: side-shot of squall from opening fmv (maybe i'm a lion)
I've been itching to role-play again. The latest one advertised seemed interesting until I got to the fuck like rabbits part. Meh. I should look around for other RPGs.

I need to re-organize my icons. I noticed that the majority of them seem to be of Rinoa...

I quit playing Morrowind for a bit and started a new game of DAO. I made a female city elf, and it took me awhile to make one that I liked because they always seem too model-esque for my tastes, compared to Shianni and Soris. I guess it's because the main char has no facial expression? Must be why I prefer DA2.